Monday, August 08, 2005

A love intensified.

Here are the two reasons why everything in my heart is intensified. It is because of my children I laugh harder, love stronger, fear deeper, cry easily, drive slower, demand better, dream higher, crave patience, feel inadequate, praise God...every emotion I have is intensified now because of the two little people who I call my children. I very often think about the people in Southeast Asia who seven months ago had thier own children ripped from thier arms and carried away. I dream of the same very thing happening to me. Can it be true that this really did happen? Might I one day have to endure such a devastation? How quickly things can be put back into perspective again. In all actuality, nothing alse matters to me other than the love and saftey of those I love. All else fades away to me. I don't want to go back to work so we can have more money, I want to be at home with my kids before they too quickly grow up and leave. I don't want a huge house and mortgage so my husband has to work 60 hours a week to pay the bills. I don't want my kids to gradute before I realise I hardly know them because I've been too busy trying to accomplish my "goals". I want to thier mother forever, and be a loving and faithful wife. And I want to praise God and please Him with my thoughts words and actions.
Sorry so deep guys. I need a good rant. ch


Justin said...

DAH - ANG your kids are blonde!

Amanda said...

Ben and Megan are two of the reasons I have decided to go off the pill! They are too adorable; keep the pictures coming. This blogging thing is so FUN! You blog rocks too, by the way. I think I might stop by on my lunch break today if that works for you.

mum said...

I love to visit your blog. It is so fun to see new pics of the goings on every few days. I also love to read your thoughts and reflections. I'm so proud of your little family.